Recently, I got to know jovan via talking to each other using sms. Where have I been all this while? He is like the right guy for me! When I choose guys, I would also judge them on how they sms, and he types the messages long and it is filled with emotions. I like him already, but aren't I being a little too flirt? It is fun to message him as he is the devil and I am the angel. His name is Jovan Khoo Yong Wen! Smiles, right now, he has been sms-ing me for two consecutive days. Hope that he will continue to sms me first, I had always been longing to talk to him. Thank God! Hallelujah. But God, is he the one for me? Is this Your plan? What is going to happen to us? Will I end up with him? Lord, please answer my prayers!

Exams are over, and daddy had made this deal with us. The deal is that my sister and I have to score B3's and A2's, or even A1's! But do you think that this is possible? I am already having difficulties getting B4's, plus I got most of the B4's is during term one. As you all know term one's test is easy, and if I can only get B4's in all my easy tests. What about my mid-year? I seriously don't have any confidence that I can get good grades, let alone getting a passing mark for every subject. I guess my church days are over, daddy wouldn't let us go to church services anymore. Those Christ-followers kept telling me to pray to God for help. I prayed and I prayed to Him, but dad's attitude to us is getting worser and worser day by day. I can't take this torment anymore!

Lord, I don't want to leave Y ou just because of my dad. You really made a deep impact in my life and You changed me a lot. At times I would wonder why did You let me suffer and at times I would constantly blame You because You weren't there for me and I can't feel Your prescence anymore. I feel so sad whenever You were not there for me. Lord! :'(